So to be honest recently i just fell in love with this guy which had turned my life upside down, broke my heart, put a cliffhanger to my imaginary love story and make me crazy of him for every second. However, after i confessed my feelings and those cheezy things and stuff, surprisingly he didnt really reject me but somehow indirectly wanting me to wait bcoz apparently he has no money to get married (but i just want him, not his money).
However, due to his acceptance, i bcame so desperate, like really wanting to be with him and get married with him. Im yearning for his touch, love and attention. I wish i could stay contacted to him every second, listen to his voice and see his face. I wanted to know what hes doing, where hed go, with whom, with what and its terribly disturbing for him(?) and for myself neither. I have to encounter serious anxiety, instability of emotion and my sanity. I had bcame someone i dont know. I bcame someone i use to hate when my other girlfriends do it.
Its not suppose to be like that. We all know tht we dont get marry simply bcoz you wanted huging, kissing, touching, dating, staring, calling and sexing to be something legal but rather, you are about to create a legacy. Thus, all aspects must b considered thoroughly.
Idk if im not really exposed to the oppose gender. I dont really have much opposite gender friend. Idk if due to that circumstances, i had bcome a little bit conservative all this while? Have i gone culture shock? Bcoz everytime he texts me, sometimes by putting just a little concern in the message, im turning on, buddy. I felt stimulated. This pussy is roaring man. I felt severely horny (by only that simple message) and sinful at the same time.
I seriously dont know if i should proceed this relationship or not bcoz i absolutely dont want this relationship to be a penis-based relationship. I dont know how do i stop this? The longer i stay in the relationship. The more im yearning for him. And i absolutely dont wanna turn into a nymphomaniac. I just wanted to be an average girl with average sensual desire.
However, due to his acceptance, i bcame so desperate, like really wanting to be with him and get married with him. Im yearning for his touch, love and attention. I wish i could stay contacted to him every second, listen to his voice and see his face. I wanted to know what hes doing, where hed go, with whom, with what and its terribly disturbing for him(?) and for myself neither. I have to encounter serious anxiety, instability of emotion and my sanity. I had bcame someone i dont know. I bcame someone i use to hate when my other girlfriends do it.
Its not suppose to be like that. We all know tht we dont get marry simply bcoz you wanted huging, kissing, touching, dating, staring, calling and sexing to be something legal but rather, you are about to create a legacy. Thus, all aspects must b considered thoroughly.
Idk if im not really exposed to the oppose gender. I dont really have much opposite gender friend. Idk if due to that circumstances, i had bcome a little bit conservative all this while? Have i gone culture shock? Bcoz everytime he texts me, sometimes by putting just a little concern in the message, im turning on, buddy. I felt stimulated. This pussy is roaring man. I felt severely horny (by only that simple message) and sinful at the same time.
I seriously dont know if i should proceed this relationship or not bcoz i absolutely dont want this relationship to be a penis-based relationship. I dont know how do i stop this? The longer i stay in the relationship. The more im yearning for him. And i absolutely dont wanna turn into a nymphomaniac. I just wanted to be an average girl with average sensual desire.
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